Today is the first day in months that I have managed to successfully write more than a paragraph in my novel. I am SO relieved that the dry spell has ended!
So why did I get it? Honestly, I don’t know. I was on a streak, and then creativity just failed me. The storyline started to make no sense and started to seem rather lame, to be frank. From there, doubt in my ability set in, life got hectic, and I couldn’t regain my rhythm.
Writing two terrible kids’ books to try and mix things up and reboot my creativity didn’t help my confidence either. It just cemented the feeling of inadequacy. The first attempt I gave to a friend of mine overseas to read, and she never got back to me. I re-read it and decided it was crap (It really was bad. Highly possible that my friend did not want to tell me…The coward!…). So, I scrapped that one and wrote another using a different format. I gave that one to a colleague, who didn’t get back to me either! So can only assume that one was complete shite too, lol.
All was not lost though. I figured out how to publish a book on Amazon Kindle Direct Publishing (KDP), which was fun and one of the reasons I wrote them in the first place. Even wrote an article on it. On the downside, it has prevented me from figuring out the marketing side of things, as there is no way I want to market garbage. Learning that will have to wait.
After that fiasco and accepting that the kid’s genre is not my wheelhouse, my day job and personal life started demanding my attention (complex initiatives and people issues at work and buying property, socialising and a bought of flu on the personal side).
Since then, life has taken a while to settle, but now that it has, I have managed to reboot and refocus. Daily meditation and mantra assisting in the process.
Today, I feel great! Today I am writing for me. Today, I am enjoying my story. Today, that is enough!
I am grateful for all these moments. Why? Cause even failing is learning!
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Janine (J9) Nijs
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